This Is Me

Who we are is affected by how we see ourselves and the world around us. Whether we feel we can have affect on it, or if we feel we are powerless. Am I worthwhile? Am I worthy of love? I had a dream recently that I was at rehearsal, singing, but I couldn’t focus. My … Continue reading This Is Me →

Philippians 4:13 Live

"Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am." Philippians 4:13 MSG Recently I got a call from my son that his car wouldn’t start. I’d already left for work, so I called and checked in and then headed back home to see … Continue reading Philippians 4:13 Live →

Word

It is no secret that I love words. Words have weight and flavor. They can create, propel, release. They can just as easily cut, imprison and destroy. For me different kinds of word expressions are like different kind of art media. A text is a quick doodle on paper. An email is color drawing with … Continue reading Word →

The Salt Shaker and the Can Opener

Have you ever said "boy I wish I could use a can opener on his head and see what is inside?" I have often thought that about my son, because I find him fascinating and engaging when I can get him talking about the things that he knows and enjoys. I think that if we … Continue reading The Salt Shaker and the Can Opener →

Into the New Year

I took a break from writing over the Christmas/New Year holiday, and spent some time with my family. Just before that I managed to complete my book Grief: From Ashes to Life (And All the Crazy In Between). It is the collection of my blog posts with some editing. It is currently available on Lulu.com … Continue reading Into the New Year →

Christmas Packs a Wallop

It is the Christmas season. Christmas is the chief of all the American holidays. It is loaded with activities: parties, decorating, family, gifts and all kinds of food. There is heavy pressure from the commercial side to go all out and it starts right around Thanksgiving. I personally don't want to see Christmas decorations, or … Continue reading Christmas Packs a Wallop →

Out of the Ashes

I feel like I have been through the fire. Like I have been covered with a thick layer of charred skin that has built up over time. Every time a new hurt, disappointment, or crisis occurred my "skin" would crack a little, and pain would bleed out. In a short time the anger and defensiveness … Continue reading Out of the Ashes →

Keeping the Faith

I was at a Worship Team party this week when I had one of those grief moments, the kind that only takes one small thing to set me spiraling down into tears. This time it was the Matzo that got me. The dry, bumpy, cracker-like flatbread used for communion. It sat on a paper plate … Continue reading Keeping the Faith →

To Feel Or Not To Feel-That Is The Tension

I've really been struggling this week. All my life I have been taught that it is important to be kind, and loving and forgiving. To get rid of "negative" emotions. Fake it till you make it. Be a good girl, wife, mother, worker. Be humble, put others before yourself. That all worked pretty well until … Continue reading To Feel Or Not To Feel-That Is The Tension →

The Door Needed Kicking

I had an insight today. Mornings have been tiring and emotionally draining lately, and that makes it difficult for me to get going at work. When I got to work there were some problems that needed to be worked out. I was both angry and complacent. I knew that the way the schedule was playing … Continue reading The Door Needed Kicking →